Friday, January 19, 2007

There's so much I can bitch and complain about right now, but for once, I'm not really in the mood. Although, I can say that I'm sort of broke right now. Cry. I want to buy books and comic books.

Anyways, last night I was out with some people I went to Japan with. We ate tonkatsu and walked around Sawtelle Ave-- which is the "new Little Tokyo" of L.A., so to speak. It was fun. The guys seem to be deprived of good Japanese grocery stores and spent a lot of time exploring the little supa in the area, squealing at all the food we used to see in Japan.

I really want to go to Las Vegas with Missy, but now I don't think I'll have the money, really, or the time... I need to kick back before my trip to Washington D.C. and I've never been a big fan of Las Vegas anyways. Of course, the only time I was there was when I was younger and couldn't really do anything but play at the arcades. I would go again some time, but not now. I don't feel like partying much. It tires me out, even though I always have fun when I go out and do things that are not typical of me.

Plus, school beckons my attention. When I graduate, I'll let loose-- but right now, it's too hard to play when school and work are eating a big chunk of my time.

Even though I don't believe in wasting too much time on cosplay and ridiculous things like that, I do want to have some time to work on costumes still. I should start thinking about what costumes I want to wear for AX. I have one or two costume for sure right now, but there's still three more days of the con I don't have plans for! XD Haha!

Thursday, January 04, 2007

I feel bad for my mom-- she had such a bad morning. It was ridiculous. Nothing horrible happened, but the situation is quite annoying and will have to wait to be resolved. All I gotta say is that owning cars is the biggest pain in the ASS in the world. It's not a very good start of 2007 around me, as I kind of hinted in my last post here. I just pray it'll get better.

Art wise, there hasn't been much progress, that's for sure. Still lacking inspiration and motivation. Although I did pull out some pictures I took from Japan and uploaded them on my DA, here. I fancy myself a photographer some times. :P

Next week, school starts for me-- and I'm not looking forward to it at all. I hope between now and then, I'll find the motivation to make something out of my last semester there. I'm going to be taking a class with a teacher I liked before and I'm hoping she still has the same faith in me as she did when I was a Sophomore. I've learned that cool teachers can change a lot from one year to the next, and they're not so cool or helpful anymore. I guess I'm fairly apprehensive about everything.

I've been waiting to graduate, but now I'm also becoming quite apprehensive of that. I'm pretty tired of life already and I barely started mine at all.

What a waste, right? I don't know what else to do though.
Life has been so uninspiring.

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

The other day, I burnt my elbow... it's all puzzy and the skin keeps peeling off.

Today, I cut myself with an exacto knife.

Already, I'm annoyed with the whole world and greatly disliking my life.

I'm starting this new year off sooooooo well....

Monday, January 01, 2007

The new year has barely started and I'm already EXHAUSTED. Mostly from the partying this past week or so, but also from thinking about what I'm going to have to accomplish this coming year...

Graduating college... and showing some thing from it. Not so sure I will actually graduate with something to be proud of, but I will have to merely settle for having to be proud of actually graduating. In time, nonetheless. No super-senior semesters for me. I guess that is something to be proud of.

But I have nothing to put in a portfolio and shop around with. Of course, I can totally settle down with the job I have now. I will probably be very content for quite some time. I'm just afraid I'll eventually break down to the nagging muffled voice at the back of my head that if I settle for mediocre, I would be a failure to people's expectations. Not quite sure if I can keep pretending that my opinion of myself is what matters most. Especially since that opinion isn't quite positive in the first place.

Ah well. Life does go on. I need to start training myself to relinquish emotional attachment to material things. I'm pretty sure I'll move somewhere far from here one of these days-- having a lot of crap is not going to be a pretty situation at all. It's a scary though, really.

Who knows though. I might just root it up here where I am now and just be a drone till I die in my sleep.

I really need some inspiration and motivation to pick my spirit up a little bit.

babbling about life and the occassional artwork. i go by the name 'Dawn'- warning, I'm pretty much yaoi and boy-love friendly! I also cosplay, and run a collective website called defective geeks. i play in livejournal. i dabble in fashion. i want to work in the comic book industry one day. just goes to show you how crazy I am, right?

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